... which is why it seems like I've abandoned this before I've really begun!
Stu is poorly today so I'm doing a little bit of 'Nurse Erica', but not too much.
Currently looking about for funky maternity clothes. I've decided I want to be a Funky Mother. I might as well let my fun side out. I want our child to be a happy, funny and proud individual. If I'm not out there being who I am and enjoying life, how will little Sturica Bump develop his or her personality? I don't want to set any bad examples. Easier said than done, eh? Everything is within us and is in our power as parents, so we can try our best.
I believe I'm currently experiencing what they call 'quickening', the little butterfly wing flutters. I say 'I believe' because God knows I've never felt anything like this before and I could obviously be mistaking wind or bowel movements for this feeling! From reading tons of websites and the books and magazines lying around I don't think I'm meant to be feeling this so early because I'm quite overweight and I'm a first-timer so my uterus isn't as thin as women who've already done this. But hey, as I keep being told 'every women is going to have different experiences'... blah blah blah.
Indigestion is a proper bitch too. I can have a day where I eat like food's going out of circulation and I'll be alright, the next day I force down 2 slices of toast and rest of the day anything I eat feels like it's stuck in my throat and I'm bloated.
I'm also wondering when I'm going to start looking more pregnant and less fat? If only I'd gotten skinny before life dropped the B-bomb on me.
I worry a lot. My next post will be about worrying.
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